A Faith Strengthened by Doubt
And the Lord said, "Simon, Simon! Indeed, Satan has
asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, that
your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your
brethren." Luke 22:31,32
Doubt is not necessarily the enemy of faith. When we pass through the wastelands
of doubt and our faith falters, or perhaps even fails, it is possible to
experience that doubt in such a way that our faith later becomes more vibrant.
And a faith that has been invigorated in this way is not only of more value to
ourselves, it is of exceedingly more value to those around us.
Kahlil Gibran, the Syrian-born mystic poet, said, "Doubt is a pain too lonely to
know that faith is his twin brother." When we reflect on the matter, we realize
that this is true. Both faith and doubt deal with the unseen. They both confront
questions that, at least for the time being, have no complete answer. In the
face of these questions, faith mellows our doubt with reverence and gratitude,
and doubt makes our faith more experienced and mature. It is doubt, properly
dealt with, that takes our faith out of the nursery and into the real world.
The person who has never doubted may have a faith that is quite genuine; his or
her faith may, in fact, please God. But relatively speaking, that person's faith
requires less trust than that of the one who has survived seasons of doubt.
To see this point, compare faith to courage. Courage is not the absence of fear,
but rather the doing of what is right while one is experiencing fear. While it
may be possible to speak of the courage of one who has never faced any
significant danger and therefore has never had much reason to be afraid, how
much more admirable is the bravery of the person who has really struggled (and
not always successfully) against both danger and fear! Similarly, those who know
the most about faith are often those who have had the most experience with
doubt.
Real faith has no need to pretend or to run away from difficulty. Instead, faith
embraces doubt with honesty, recognizing that troubling questions are inevitable
in a world where our sins have hidden God's face from us. Doubts are what make
faith, faith.
Isolation has led me to reflection, reflection to doubt,
doubt to a more sincere and intelligent love of God. - Marie
Leneru
