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the sake of vainglory and had in it no consecration to the service of God. He felt on
the edge of an abyss. The world held him back; his fears urged him away. He was in the
throes of a conversion wrought by terror; his religion, now and always, in common with as
Islam, was other-worldly. So he remained in conflict with himself for six months from the
middle of 488. Finally, his health broke down under the strain. In his feebleness and
overthrow he took refuge with God, as a man at the end of his resources. God heard him and
enabled him to make the needed sacrifices. He abandoned all and wandered forth from
Baghdad as a Sufi. He had put his brilliant present and brilliant future absolutely behind
him; had given up everything for the peace of his soul. This date, the end of 488, was the
great era in his life; but it marked an era, too, in the history of Islam. Since al-Ash'ari
went back to the faith of his fathers in 300, and cursed the Mu'tazilites and all their
works, there had been no such epoch as this flight of al-Ghazzali. It meant that the reign
of mere scholasticism was over; that another element was to work openly in the future
Church of Islam, the element of the mystical life in God, of the attainment of truth by
the soul in direct vision.
He went to Syria and gave himself up for two years to the religious exercises of the
Sufis. Then he went on pilgrimage, first to Jerusalem; then to the tomb of Abraham at
Hebron; finally to Mecca and al-Madina. With this religious duty his life of strict
retirement ended. It is evident that he now felt that he was again within the fold of
Islam. In spite of his former resolution
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to retire from the world, he was drawn back. The prayers of his children and his own
aspirations broke in upon him, and though he resolved again and again to return to the
contemplative life, and did often actually do so, yet events, family affairs, and the
anxieties of life, kept continually disturbing him.
This went on, he tells us, for almost ten years, and in that time there were revealed
to him things that could not be reckoned and the discussion of which could not be
exhausted. He learned that the Sufis were on the true and only path to the knowledge of
God; that neither intelligence nor wisdom nor science could change or improve their
doctrine or their ethics. The light in which they walk is essentially the same as the
light of prophecy; Muhammad was a Sufi when on his way to be a prophet. There is none
other light to light any man in this world. A complete purifying of the heart from all but
God is their Path; a seeking to plunge the heart completely in the thought of God, is its
beginning, and its end is complete passing away in God. This last is only its end in
relation to what can be entered upon and grasped by a voluntary effort; in truth, it is
only the first step in the Path, the vestibule to the contemplative life. Revelations (mukashafas,
unveilings) came to the disciples from the very beginning; while awake they see angels and
souls of prophets, hear their voices and gain from them guidance. Then their State (hal,
a Sufi technicality for a state of ecstasy) passes from the beholding of forms to stages
where language fails and
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